Sunday, January 31, 2010
I wish i was a little kid again.
I want someone to take care of me.
I want someone to clean up my messes and remind me what's right from wrong.
I want to be awed at, even if what i'm doing isn't that cute.
I want to be yelled at before i make the same mistakes again,
and I want to be held in someone else's arms while i cry my heart out.
(:
&& I'm scared.
Because even after all the long ass talks,
you just never seem to get it.
If only you could see,
how torn up i am inside.
Maybe then, you'd understand.
Actions indeed speak louder than words.
And I'm waiting for those actions.
Would they come?
You tell me.
((:
Friday, January 29, 2010
You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind Instead of slamming down the phone girl, for the hundredth time
I got your number on my wall, but I ain't gonna make that call
When divided we stand baby, united we fall
Got the time got a chance gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart gonna take it
All I know I can't fight this flame
You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby, time after time
Without you
One night alone Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide
I don't wanna fight no more, I don't know what we're fighting for
When we treat each other baby, like an act of war
I could tell a million lies and it would come as no surprise
When the truth is like a stranger, hits you right between the eyes
There's a time and a place and a reason
And I know I got a love to believe in
All I know got to win this time
(:
Dont make them, if you can't keep them.
is that too much to ask?
♫ Stereo's : when love and hate collide - Def Leppard ♫
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Alcohol is fascinating, we get it.
And apparently, so is butchering the english language.
Congrats!
(:
Literal Death by Chocolate
is what they call this....
Grandma's Guaranteed Death By Chocolate Cupcakes
What you need:
12 Oreo cookies, unscrewed
3/4 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
3/4 cup hot water
3 cups all-purpose flour
1 teaspoon baking powder
1 teaspoon baking soda
1 1/4 teaspoons salt
3 sticks unsalted butter
2 1/4 cups sugar
4 eggs
1 tablespoon and 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 cup sour cream
1/2 cup heavy cream
8 ounces semisweet chocolate chips
1/2 teaspoon instant espresso powder
Toffee bits (optional)
What you do:
Preheat oven to 350. Line a muffin tin with cupcake liners. From the unscrewed Oreos, place one cream side of the cookie in each liner. You may either discard, devour, or crush up the remaining cookie halves. Combine the cocoa powder and hot water in one cup. In a large bowl, combine the flour, baking powder, baking soda, and salt. Whisk it together to combine it. In a medium saucepan over low heat, combine the butter and sugar. Stir it together until is is completely melted.
Take the butter mixture off the heat and dump it in a bowl with an electric mixer. Beat it with the electric mixer for a few minutes until it is cooled. Add the eggs one at a time, then add the vanilla. Add the chocolate mixture. Finally add the flour mixture in thirds, alternating with half of the sour cream. You should begin and end with the flour mixture. Once it is just combined, divide the batter amongst the liners using an ice cream scoop. Bake in the oven for 20 minutes.
Once the cupcakes are cooled move onto the glaze. Put the chocolate chips, cream and espresso powder in a microwave safe bowl. Heat it in the microwave for 15 second installments, stirring between each until it is fully combined, smooth and shiny. Dip the cupcakes in the glaze. If you wish, top with toffee bits or crumbs from the remaining Oreos. Then try out a cupcake version of Russian roulette and hope for the best.
(:
Yummy la.
I'm so making this.
Oh there's this other one, but i'm not showing yalll
Monday, January 25, 2010
I want to be the girl that changed everything, the girl that made a difference, the girl that gave you a story to tell.
So, would you let me be that girl?
(:
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Yes, i do believe in you, in us.
I sit alone and watch the clock
Trying to collect my thoughts
All I think about is you
And so I cry myself to sleep
And hope the devil I don't meet
In the dreams that I live trough
Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
this life is not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams
All the smiles you had to fake
And all the shit you had to take
Just to lead us here again
I never have the things to say
To make it all just go away
To make it all just disappear
Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
this life is not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams
Its my life
Its my choice
Hear my words
Hear my voice
And just believe
I sit alone and watch the clock
Trying to collect my thoughts
And all I think about is you
If you Believe in me
life is not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams
Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life is not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams
(:
&&school's ending in another 2 weeks, excluding the one that is about to start. UT3 is gonna start real soon, so gotta start doing notes, and studying every weekends that i get. Gotta go have 3 injections for the Thailand trip on Sunday. Was actually wanting to have them on Saturday, but then i' meeting vithya. So Sunday it is. I'm bored, so I'm applying for jobs online. Got an interview next month, hopefully i get that w vivian(:
Monday: OFF, but got DBIO photoshoot at 12.30pm. So gonna go for that.
Tuesday: School, SL meeting
Thursday: School, Cell culture class BBQ
Friday: Maybe out with loves.
Saturday: Vithya
Sunday: Injections AKA Doom's DAY
Have i mentioned that i'm afraid of needles? I really hate injections, they make me sick :(
HEEEELLLLPPPPPPPPPP!
&& B, where are you?
♫ Stereo's : Believe - Staind ♫
Friday, January 22, 2010
Dear Polaroid,
For some reason that i can't seem to apprehend, i like this picture alot.
hmm.
(:
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
I just believe blindly, and Get lets down every single time by everyone.
&& Yet i still wish.
things would get better!
i just know it.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Saturday.Sunday.Ubin.Team Biogas.Fun.
So, i had fun with the Thailand team. all seem nice, and fun people.
Well, thanks to all the walking, the leg has gotten worse. So, i got back home yesterday just to realize the skin was coming out. So, i peeled them off, and applied medicine. After applying it, my sole started burning. Like ahhh. So i washed it, and now the whole area is red, and soft. Can't walk without slightly limping. How great! Went to see the doc today, got referral letter to skin center. The date's not yet confirmed!
I'm scared thinking about what is gonna be done to my feet now. Haiz!
&& It's so hard to please everyone. Well, welcome to life!
you just need him, so stop bothering me with all your small talks.
It's always about him. You always treated him better, don't deny.
Well, too bad that isn't the definition of family. Get it right.
I'm sick of it, im turning away. Moving away.
I just can't wait to get out of Singapore, and get my ass to Australia.
It'll be a brand new start.
New life, New friends, New beginning.
I just hope B would be there with me.
hopingggg.....
Friday, January 15, 2010
I know sometimes i can be a bit overbearing.
I know I'm not always what you want me to be, or do what you say.
But you're still here. The one who wont'd hide of having me. I know sometimes i talk too much.
I know sometimes I yak about nothing important.
But you're still talking to me, still listening to the nonsense i blabber.
You still look at me like I'm everything and I' enough for you.
I've never felt this content.
I don't like it when you stare for too long but still i get fluttered and blush when ever you do.
I know this is different, but because just by loving you, I feel so happy. Like you love me.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Yes, the much awaited wait is over, FYP grades are out.
And he lied to me, wallow. I got B la. (:
Yes, was feeling sad that my bad grade would pull down my GPA.
But no it won't.
Anyway, 12th week of school is ending as of tomorrow.
Leaving 3 more weeks of lessons,
and 1 more week of Tests.
In total, 4 more weeks of RP.
After which, i'd wave goodbye to RP.
Final hours of RP. hahaha.
Boo you, I've got things to do. haha, bye!
The shifts of fortune test the reliability of friends.
Thursday, January 07, 2010
new year has come and goneee.
You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?
You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day
I know that I miss you
But let me just say
I don’t want to miss you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl
Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my mind
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I am over it
Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be
I’m living in a world that’s all about me
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away from you
(:
Oh, and new year has come and gone. A week has flown by.
The guys came over and stayed in my place, pictures would be up soon. But for now, they are up on fb.
School, out for mahen's one out of the many series of farewells, aunty's place etc...
School has been okay, with test on the first day of school. Neurobio's tmr. And then it would be 2 down, 2 more to go next week. Can't wait for the tests to be over,.
ohohoh, and and minusing this week and including the tests week there would be another 5 more weeks of RP. After which, i'll graduate, AND WORK. Officially, working adult (:
HAHA, after that. comes application to AUSTRALIA w mat(: Can't wait to get it, and go there to study. No Singapore, No drama, No interference. hmmm, see what time says.
