Monday, September 28, 2009
i hate dealing with situations.I just can't and can never deal with situations.
I'm trying, really am.
Please don't give up on me.
Cause i would never do that to you.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ?em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo
Saturday, September 26, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)
Thanks for everything. From sacrificing sleep time to putting up with all my emo/bitchy ness, long ass walks, the wise words of advice and lame ass jokes. I'd give all my love to you by letting you win monopoly. Know why? cause you really are the best !!! <3
We've come this far, which actually isn't that far technically but yet you know what? It doesn't matter. Just for you i'll throw in a proper heart (not that make shift < + 3 one) because under that whole anjadi (i am oh so cool and gangsta, yo) exterior still lies that spastic, i-am-too-scared-of-ghosts-to-walk-back-alone Mat! haha ...
and for today, you can be first place :) ♥ ♥ ♥
Labels: Mathan
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Birthdays are just another day. & yes, i've officially turned 19 today. Enjoy the pictures of monday's meet-up.
Firstly, my W34K clique surprised me on monday. I was planning for Hanan's b'day and they were planning mine. How interesting. Well, it as jus like last yr, but last yr had more people and it was at a diff location. This we decided to go makan at Fish n co glass house. Thanks guys! I love it, and i'm sure Hanan too. Missed you guys like alot la, can? After which, we played game and catch up with each other.
People: Jeslyn, Herwan,Umesh,Bernard,Hanan. Thanks you guys. <3
Tuesday met Mat for lunch and started roaming around. After which at around 7 we went to get some things at vivo for our "mini" picnic at sentosa. Mat, thanks for spending the wee hours of my b'day with me, although u were sick. Thanks. Sadly, there wasn't any pics. Cause my cam was low on batt :(
Today: Got back hm tired, and slept. I know what a way to celebrate my bday. But then i had fun, although it could have been better spent. But it rocked. <3
Can't wait for the other meet-up's mannnn...
Friends, date me out soon i'm missing yall.
&&
happy 3th(:
Labels: bf(:, W34k clique
Monday, September 14, 2009
You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there." -Bob Marley
Cramps are not fun,
go away please.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
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Saturday was spent doing alittle of deepavali shopping, having terrible cramps and pondering over some "what may seem stupid" issues.
Firstly, i hate cramps. I don't get them, and if i do. They are my worst nightmare. I don't cry unless it really hurts. And trust me it hurts and is still hurting very much.
Secondly, to top this off i'm thinking about something right now. I know it's not important, i fully trust you. But but, insecurities can't be helped. You know if you know. Dont bother asking me about this if you've got no idea.
So right about now, i just feel like curling up in bed and crying myself to sleep. It hurts that much. Everything. Stupid stomach :'(
Maybe, you should have known that i didn't really meant what i said? But you didn't. Well, it doesnt matter. Things are still the same, right?
This has officially been the WORST SATURDAY ever.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Ich Leibe Dich.
Go figure.
You hide your emotion sometimes .You are a moon type of person. You tend to be the quiet type or in contrast, you are not happy but sometimes you act it out in order for you to not burden your friends with your problems. You've faced some problems in your life. Your heart has been dealt blows before . You tend to think about things a lot more than other people, and you may get annoyed with people who act out without thinking about consequences. You are also the type of person that others often come to with their problems because you've been through plenty, and you are very understanding. Though you sometimes feel lonely, your demeanor is usually chill, and relaxed. You usually are logical, and rely a lot on facts and information on decisions. You often keep things to yourself. This is just one side of you, and you have different faces in different situations and environments, just like the moon has phases.
Labels: German, Quiz
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
Its early in the morning
And my heart is really lonely
Just thinkin bout you baby
Got me twisted in the head
And I dont know how to take it
But its driving me so crazy
I dont know if its right
I'm tossin turning in my bed
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And I still cant sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
Weak...
I'm feeling hopeless in my home
I dont know what to do but I think I'm in love
Baby...
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?
Now I know you're not my lady I'm just tryin to make this right
I dont know what to do I'm going out of my mind
So baby if u let me could I getchu to say maybe we could ride together
We could do this all nite now I dont care if u got a man
Baby I wish you'd understand
Cuz I kno he cant love u right, quite like I can
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And I still cant sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
Weak...
I'm feeling hopeless at home
I dont kno what to do but I think I'm in love
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?
I love the way u freaky like that
I love the way u freaky like that
I love the way u freaky like that
Its an obsession
Hold up let me dream
Shorty got me feelin less supreme
Where my candy, where my cream
Got your boy feel less supreme
Hold up wait a minute baby you so damn independent
Loving everything your representing
Got alot of money, I love to spend it
And thats whats up and I dont care what people scream
You're my blessin when I'm stressin
My superfly beauty queen
I'm gonna keep it saucy
Cuz my money know how I do, we go rendez-vous, mi corazon belongs to you
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong) what am I do wrong [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
What am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong?) what am I do so wrong? [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?
Amor
♫ Stereo's : Obsession: Frankie J ♫
Monday, September 07, 2009
One after one. Hmmm, I don't blame you, but i'm pretty sure you'd react differently if i had broken mine. I believe you won't do it again, but then thanks for trying..
Prioritize things and follow them. Don't let other factors affect your priorities.
It kills
Because to every action there is always an equal and opposite reaction.
Sunday, September 06, 2009
So many things have happened since sch ended officially on the 25th right after UT! I'm really running low on cash, but staying home is worst. Well, below is my so called schedule up till stated.
(:
Past activites
26 Aug: Mat
27 Aug: Fishing with Mat
28 Aug: Final Destination with Mat, Vithya and Thevita
29 Aug: Uncle's suprise b'day celebration
30 Aug: Flyer with family
31 Aug: Marcus, Zal and Zk
1 Sept: Proposal with Mat
2 Sept: FYP and town with Mat, Hm, Ian, Wilson, Zal, Jidi.
3 Sept: FYP (aquaculture open house)
4 Sept: Home sweet Home
5 Sept: Mat, Sch (Ranjan's bday)
6 Sept: Movie with family (Yoges's bday)
Upcoming actitivies
7 Sept: FYP and Raj b'day
8 Sept: Hadi (Hanan's bday)
9 Sept: Dinner with family (Rages and Menaga's bday)
10 Sept: School for workshop FYP
11 Sept: Cheryl and Jasdeep: not confirmed yet HarbourFront
12 Sept: Menaga chalet: not confirmed yet "Deepavali" shopping
13 Sept: Lunch with Mishal
14 Sept: W34K Outing
15 Sept: Marina barrage with mat, izaan, diana, syu, hadi MAT
16 Sept: MAT (my b'day)
17 Sept: FREE (Ellen and Jay's bday)
18 Sept: Picnic with sec-gfs: not confirmed yet
19 Sept: Movie with vithya
20 - 23 Sept: FREE
24 Sept: Outing with guys.
25 Sept: Sentosa: not confirmed yet MAT
26 Sept: MAT (Mathan and Dhinesh's bday)
27 Sept : FREE(Kalpana's Bday)
28 Sept till whenever : FREE
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