Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Hello.
I'm on 2 days MC. So back to work on Thursday. Coughing for the past 1 month, and esp this week it became really bad. Went to the doctor's just now, and he gave me antibiotics and all the usual cough stuff, and said that if i still have cough i have to come back. And this time he'll put me on inhaler. Like I might be getting asthma! And it could possibly because of my job. :(:( That's like damn depressing laaa. Hopefully, it gets better. Sheeesh.
So, anyway. My dad has decided to get a second car, mainly for my brother to travel to and from school. But high chances of ME using the car on weekends. So, my dad might be getting the car by the end of next week earliest, or the month. Reuben's dad is bringing him to see cars this Saturday. Shall see how.
On a happy note! This week is a 4 day week, but now for me its a 2 day work week. FRIDAY is the company's anniversay so no work. But we all are going to UNIVERSAL STUDIOS FOR THE ANNIVERSARY. FREE ENTRY YALL! then next week also 4 day work week. Cus FRIDAY is GOOD FRIDAYYY!
Sunday, March 27, 2011
I'm back from a really long break. Sorry about it yall. Being busy with school, annoying work and stuff.
Well, i heard some things. Right now, im just disgusted with some people, and their actions.
People and lies. Such an inevitable pair, ain't they? People cannot live with lies, and they cannot live without lies. Such irony, how everyone is striving for a relationship without lies, and still lie to one another. It may be something small/big.
You know what's even disgusting? Is when you claim to be in love with this person, and still wana have fun and see other people. That doesn't make sense. Whatever your reasons are, they are not justifiable. Cause when you're in love, you're suppose to only have eyes for that ONE person. Yes, i know that we're all humans. And we all make mistakes. But how many times do you wana make the same mistakes? The person you claim to be in a r/s with, may forgive you once, twice, hell even more than you think they might. That just shows how much the person actually care about you. And every time you do the same shit over and over again, you're just pushing possibly the only person who loves you with all their heart away. And let me tell you this, once that person is gone. He/she is never coming back. And by the time you realize all this, it would be too late. Cause by then he/she would have seen how much they mean to you. Which is close to nothing. So every time you choose to cheat on them in anyway. It could be lying, seeing someone, sleeping around or whatever. You're just showing that their worth losing. That is not LOVE, that is just making use. Respect the other person, if you don't someday someone will treat you the same fucking way you did, or maybe even worse.
You say all these things, and act like they mean something. Sometimes, i'm not so sure. You say all this things, and act accordingly, but your actions sometimes don't add up.
I'm lost for words, with people acting utterly disgusting. People are people, but i lose all respect i had for you, and i'll be happy if i never see your face for the rest of my life. Or best, give you a piece of my mind. You don't get to judge me. You don't know me or my story. So don't. You have so much of dirt on your back, and you say, let me quote, " not a good girl". WTF?! then what are you? a fucking "mahan"? Never judge a book by it's fucking FAKE cover. Where has you values gone to? Down the drain i presume? What happened to respecting a woman? What happened to never doing anything you don't want anyone doing to you? What happened to never hurting someone knowingly? What ever happened to your morals and values? I don't have a say in your life. I don't really know you, but my respect for you totally gone. If i ever see you again, you'll be under a new light. Oh well. Again, people with their lies. Can't live with it, can't live without it.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Hello, it's been long. I don't feel like saying much, so I'm just gonna post some pictures. Enjoy them(:
I love yall many many k? HAHA.
Friday, February 04, 2011
If you love someone, you stay by them. There is no such things as a wrong time or a mistake that is too great. Love is just love. Any excuse to walk away from love offered is just that: an excuse to explain you can’t and don’t feel the same way back towards the person that’s offering their love to you.
So this time, I’ll let him walk away. And this time, I’m walking away for good. And this time, I’m truly looking towards the future and accepting that this chapter of my life, whatever it was, is over. I want to welcome what’s to come with a completely light and open heart because now I realize I’m finally letting go of what’s false in my life to let in what will be true. I finally realize that the most important person I could ever love, is myself. And part of loving myself is recognizing that I deserve someone who doesn’t just say that they love me, but actually really does. And to give that person the chance, I’ll weed out those who would fake it. Because we choose the lives we live and I choose truth and joy. I choose love.
I guess this is a love story. Just a different kind of love.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONEE!
sorry this blog has been inactive for a really long time. Being busy with school, exams, work and all. Will try to blog as frequent, but i doubt there's no one reading this anymore. So oh well:)
Much love folks.
Monday, December 27, 2010
" The tough thing about following your heart is that people forget to mention that sometimes the heart takes you to places you shouldn’t be. Places that are as scary as they are exciting and as dangerous as they are alluring. Sometimes your heart cannot take you to places that lead to happy endings. That’s not even the difficult part; the difficult part is when you follow your heart, you leave normal; you go into the unknown and once you do, you can never go back".
Christmas has come and gone. Celebrated eve with my friends, GIFTS EXCHANGE. Followed by dinner at cousin's place. Christmas was celebrated with my aunt's kid for lunch, dinner at friend's place. Sunday went over to my friend's place and rotted. Watched FRIENDS about 4-5 movies in 2 days. Movie marathon. This year, Christmas isn't all that bad, you know. Hopefully, I end the year on a happy note.
Okay, so it's about time of the year where everyone comes up with their new year resolution. Peek into 2010 resolution, let's see what i have done from that. (:
30 December 2009
Thing i want to do in 2010!
1) To get a good GPA (done)
2) Get a job that i love (done)
3) Get a place in university (done)
4) Buy iPhone 3G S (Blackberry curve instead)
5) Open a new bank account for saving purpose. (done)
6) To make time for myself (done)
7) To save up for my Australia trip in Dec 2010. (Phuket in FEB 2011 instead)
8) To get my life in track, so no worries arises about it. (done)
9) To have a great 20th, and
10) To have lots of fun, and be HAPPY (done)
&& Lastly,
11) To still keep seeing mathan's face(:
Okay, so back to now.
I don't really know what i want to do in 2011. I just wana fast forward to 2012 going into 2013, so i could get to Australia and be there!
Wishlist for 2011?
1) To be happy, and have fun again.
2) To save EVERY MONTH
3) To spend more time with my friends
4) To do well in school
5) To go clubbing at least ONCE!
6) To be able to move on from everything that happened, and
for now,
7) To just enjoy the end of year.
So, there you go. the 2011 wish-list.
Adios love.
"A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever ? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, and make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life".
Yeah, i still believe in this.
Monday, December 13, 2010
To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more
Remember: The time to love is short
- author unknown
Friday, December 10, 2010
Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?
Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late.
Tests are over. Final exams are coming up next thursday and friday. This week has kept me pretty occupied, which is a good thing. Although, i'm really tired. It keeps me from thinking too much, and by the time i get back home, i'll be too tired. (:
The coming week is gonna be mugging week. After which enjoy. This Saturday is the last lesson of 2010. YAY:)
I wana spend my new year with someone. I don't wana spend it at home alone prolly. HAHA.
May 2011 be awesome.
much love.
Thursday, December 02, 2010
Okay, this blog has been dead for a really long time. So emo-nemo posts and all. Anyway, remember this entry i made last year July. There are some things which i've done from then till now. And those are crossed out in RED. Enjoy my list again. (:
Things to do before i die(:
Sleep under the stars. (on so many different locations )
To have a star named after me.
Throw a huge party and invite every one of your friends.
To do something scientific.
Scuba diving.
Bungee.
To see dolphins and whales.
To learn ballroom dance.
Fall in love with someone i like.
Shower in a waterfall.
Stay out all night dancing.
Teach someone illiterate to read.
To be a volunteer aboard.
Sing a song in front of an audience.
Visit a haunted house.
To have fun making a fool out of myself.
Witness solar eclipse.
To get a job i love.
Attend a concert.
Visit each of the seven continents.
Europe (Germany)- N.America
- S.America
- Antarctica
Asia (Singapore, Malaysia, India)Australia (New Zealand)- Africa
Visit an inactive volcano.
Go camping.
Run for a cause.
Go fishing and catch a fish.
Go on a helicopter ride.
Be an extra in a show.
Dive in a submarine.
Fly in a blimp.
Water rafting.
Visit all the 7 world wonders.
- Taj Mahal, India
- Eiffel Tower, France
- Leaning Tower of Pisa, Italy
- Pyramids, Egypt
- Great Wall of China, China
- The Grand Canyon, United States
- Statue of Liberty, USA
Go on a cruise.
Donate blood.
Go for an audition and get rejected.
Have a nice house.
Get into med school.
Adopt an orphan.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
LOL.
I want my room to look like that.
&& so i sat down to my report after coming back home from school at 2pm. I was suppose to hvae at least completed my draft. But i got distracted by so many things. It's now 5pm, and I've not done anything. HAHA, I'm really gonna get starting now. so some other time.
With love.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
So, First test is over. The last mid term test in next friday.
Then final exams on 16 and 17th December. Half day on 24th and 30th December. Like happy only. HAHA
So i had your name up there for more than a year, and now it's not. It's hard, but i'm not crying.
I'm done crying, and I know that i deserve better. Doesn't really mean I've moved on, i just choose to move away. I don't cry myself to sleep anymore. It feels good, but i still think about you right before i sleep. I made you promise, that if things ever doesn't work out, we would still remain friends. Thanks, for keeping that promise. I'd still like to see you around, cus we've been together really long, and it would be sad to see it all disappear. Yeah, I'm sure we won't share stuffs, but at least we'll share conversations abit here and there. I'm not gonna make us work, cus i tried and it didn't. I don't know why i was so torn apart when we broke up. Cus i was thinking about for a really long time, but couldn't bring myself to doing it. Cus i needed a reason strong enough to speak for itself. but i never stopped loving you. But now, i have. I have stopped loving you with all i have. I'm done living my life to how others perceive it. I want to live my life my way. I'm gonna think about myself and do anything that makes me happy. You use to be that person that made me smile, but somewhere in between you stopped. And now someone's making me smile. Smile more wider than you ever did. But anyway, it's better to leave shattered glasses the way it is. cus the more you try to fix it, the more it hurts. But then again, they also say that if you love something, let it go. I think time holds to truth. We shall see.
:(
BYEEEEEEEEEE
